The past week has been interesting for me on a variety of levels. There’s been frustration from wrestling with my unknown future, there’s been honest conversations that were awkward but necessary, there’s been vulnerability and expression of my friends’ hearts; and then there were the times when I slipped on mashed potatoes and caught my hair on fire.
Aint that just like life to throw a potato into the mix of an otherwise deeply theological week.
Anywho, today’s #TwentyTuesdays guest post is exciting for me because it’s written from the heart of a girl who understands exactly what I’ve gone through health-wise. She too, has had the colorectal surgery, the Jpouch, and all the gosh darn fun that goes along with that. We met in Indy last fall during the Influence Conference, where we shared our stories and struggles and “only you would understand” moments. I’ve loved getting to know her and I’m so glad she’s sharing her 20-something story on the blog. Ladies and gents, meet Katy Togeretz!
It all started with a little bit of blood. Less than a year later I woke up groggily and looked down at my abdomen to see that they had replaced it with something else—with someone else’s. That jagged incision, that external pouch—those weren’t mine, were they?
At the age of 20, I graduated from university and headed off into the world to do something great and to make a difference. At the age of 21, I got married. That same year I was also diagnosed with Ulcerative Colitis, and my neat little worldview was flipped on its head.
Some people get UC—an autoimmune disease that attacks your large intestine—and manage it for years with medication and lifestyle changes. My journey didn’t quite work out that way. It was five years and four surgeries, lengthy hospital stays, huge doses of narcotics and so so many hard things. But that’s a long story for another day. Today I want to talk about today.
If you’re following along with this series it’s probably because you’re a 20-something looking for a little inspiration or someone you can relate to. Maybe you’re like me and you’re starting to wrap up this decade. Or maybe you’re just starting out in your 20’s and wondering what it’s going to be like. Well I’ll tell you the one thing I know: it’s going to be amazing.
Now you might be thinking, “Ah your version of your 20’s sounds horrible.” And you’d be right. It was horrible. But it was also so much more.
I turn 28 in about a month and a half and I’ve been thinking a lot lately about where I’m at. If you had told my 20-year-old self that at 28 I’d have no kids, I’d live in a small apartment, I wouldn’t have some fancy high-powered job or much of a savings account… I would have wondered what went wrong. But now as I sit here at almost-28, I know that lots of things went wrong, and lots of other things went right.
I learned so much, grew so much, met so many amazing people, was loved so well, and had the chance to try and love back. More than anything I learned how much more I need to learn. That knowledge makes me thankful each and every day for the fact that my life is not in my hands. God’s plan for my life is infinitely greater than any I could possibly dream up.
Does that mean it’s easy? Definitely not. But it’s greater, it’s grander, it serves to glorify Him and to work out my salvation. And there’s nothing more important than that.
So I’ve got a couple years left of my roaring 20s and I hope to use them well. I will plan and make goals. I’ll dream and scheme. But at the end of each day, I’ll remember who’s guiding this life of mine. And I’ll thank the Lord it’s not me.
“My help comes from you. You’re right here pulling me through. You carry my weakness, my sickness, my brokenness all on your shoulders.” – For King and Country
I’d love to know a little about your 20’s journey. Where are you at? What makes you most afraid or most excited? You can find me writing, designing and crafting my way through life over at Elsie Road magazine.
Thanks so much for sharing, Katy!
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If YOU are a living, breathing, human 20-something, then YOU have a story and I want to share it with the world. Hit me up. I’d love to get you started on a guest post.
Have a great, potato-less Tuesday, friends!
Love you guys,